My life is perfect...

My life is perfect....and isn't....but SOOOO is. I know that's probably terrible grammar. I was happy to get C's in my college required English classes so whatever. The point is, my life isn't all roses, but damned if it isn't perfect.

I haven't had a haircut in 6 months. I haven't slept a full night REGULARLY in 10 YEARS. I don't have a regular eating schedule, I eat when I can. I clean my kitchen 15 FREAKING TIMES A DAY. My kids scream at me, HOURLY. My husband travels. I have no family in town and have only lived here 2+ years so I don't have a lot of "help" when I need it. I'm tired ALL OF THE TIME.

All of the above are just a few of the arguments to why my life is perfect. I don't have millions of dollars, the perfect house, a nanny, chef, or whatever other luxury you could think of. What I have is a loving husband and 4 healthy kids. What I have is a family, an incredibly IMPERFECT family. And what could be more perfect than that?

My husband will debate me ANY CHANCE he gets. I have someone who loves me and WANTS to "argue" with me.

I have to CONSTANTLY be the teacher in my kids lives. I have 4 kids that need to be taught everything worth teaching and then some.

My almost 2 year old wants to do EVERYTHING himself. I have a 4th child to guide when I never thought I would.

My 4 year old shows me EVERYDAY what it means to be a "girl". I never thought I would have a girl to guide.

My 7 year old CANNOT sit still. I have son that makes me want to get up and play.

My 9 year old will argue with me to NO END. I now know what it was like to raise me.

My life is Perfect.

I have 5 amazing and incredibly unique individuals in my life. And not just in my life, but part of what makes me who and I am and leave me wanting to make my life and their lives better.

I spend most of my days feeling broken, discouraged, tired, a failure, etc. Most days its not pretty. But that doesn't mean my life is broken, discouraging, tiring, failing, etc. I have a wonderful family that makes me want to get up each day and try to do better.

Every time I feel discouraged, I want to do better.

Every time I feel tired, I want to do better.

Every time I feel like I just can't do it, I want to do better.

And so, my life is perfect.

My life is filled with people that make me want to want more, do more, be more. My life is filled with incredible people that I made and made me. My life is good, my life is perfect.